Motivation… or lack thereof…

Sometimes even I need help with it. I bet you didn’t think so, did you? Yes, it’s true! Let’s take today for instance. It’s dreary & raining outside, which is tough even for a normal person I think (been a long time since I’d consider myself  “normal” so I’m only guessing) 😉 For me though, rain flares up my rheumatoid arthritis, making all my joints ache & scream. The very LAST thing I want to do on a rainy day is get out of a warm bed. Add to that today is Day 1 of my competition “diet” (I hate that word, gotta come up with something else to call it. It’s really just eating clean. No sugar, no salt, no dairy, no breads, yadda yadda yadda… can’t give you guys the full details otherwise how will I ever make a living?) 😉 So anyway, yeah today is Day 1 & I’m detoxing already off the refined sugars & other bad stuff. It’s making me more hungry than I should be for someone who is eating every 2.5-3 hrs. I want a snack. Something like pita bread & hummus, not necessarily something totally bad for me but something I just can’t have. And so I wait patiently for my next scheduled meal. And after that I will hit the gym and be glad that I did. After that I’ll jump into the tanning salon bed (yes yes, “bad” for me but you know what? It’s my ONLY vice anymore & we all have to die of something, right? Haha!) and that will also feel good in my bones. And tonight I will struggle to not eat a sugary dessert & instead will have a yam, some hot tea and/or my “approved late night snack” (again, being vague… sorry, some details you must pay to learn!) 😀 And tomorrow will begin another week of hardcore training, blogging, doc appts. (have my cardio stress test scheduled, looking forward to that finally coming around!) meals & so on. And in a few days when my body is clear of all the junk I’ve put into it during my last “cheat” week, I will feel alive & renewed again. You should try it… I have a feeling you’d like it 🙂